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81. A Double Priestess Playground: From Devil Dick Energy to Divine Feminine Downloads | Tiff Love

July 07, 2025 • Kristin Birdwell • Season 3 • Episode 18

What happens when you blend hillbilly roots, sex magic, grief alchemy, and divine priestess play? A whole-ass tantric resurrection.

In this deliciously raw episode, I sit down with pleasure priestess and tantric healer Tiff Love for a no-holds-barred convo on reclaiming our truth, embodying our sensuality, and integrating the fragmented pieces of our past for wholeness.

We dive into…
🌑 Owning your “golden shadow,” even the parts that come with 12-toed great-grandmas & outlaw grit
🎤 The womb-throat connection and reclaiming your voice as a sacred instrument
🍑 Sex magic, sacred touch, and healing the masculine through pleasure
✨ Erotic innocence and early sexual exploration
🌌 Grief as a gateway to channeling, creativity, and anchoring heaven on earth
🤸‍♀️ Why play is sacred, not frivolous
👑 Boss priestess boundaries and why love sometimes comes with a karate kick
🐉 Future visioning, synchronicity, and soul-led travel

This isn’t your average tantra talk. It’s raw, fun, and real AF.
Let yourself be turned on, tickled, and totally remembered:
Your pleasure is power.
Your truth is the transmission.

Welcome to the double priestess playground. 🐉💦

00:00 Embracing Authenticity and Playfulness
09:12 The Journey into Sacred Sexuality and Tantra
18:57 Exploring the Womb-Throat Connection
28:43 The Power of Writing and Self-Expression
39:11 Navigating Relationships and Boundaries
49:40 Manifesting Dreams and Future Visioning

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Kristin (00:00.142)

Welcome back to another episode of Sex, Drugs, and Soul. I have love on here today. It's gonna be a DP, a double priestess playground. She coined the term, I can't take credit for it. I just loved it when we were there. was like, a DP, double priestess, yes. Yeah. Yeah. And then just before we hopped on, we were talking about different parts of ourselves that we were kind of wrangling with.

You'd mentioned playfulness. I'd mentioned my hillbilly outlawness, which I didn't even consciously realize that I was kind of like, had not fully embraced. So I'd love to maybe chat about some authenticity. Yeah. To start off. that's great.

It's been, I think, the name of the game for me for a while. those parts of ourselves, it's like the golden shadow. kind of can be one way that I've heard people talk about. feel like I've maybe even Leola, chatting about that thing that we keep a shadow, but it really can be golden. We're the ones hiding it.

So...

Yeah, and for me it's like, I'm so goofy. And it's like, we're, this just is like, the thing that we keep hidden is the thing that helps us resonate with others. Yeah.

Kristin (01:26.126)

Yeah, I mean, it's just so fresh. I'm like, you know, Outlaw Women by Hank Williams has been my anthem the last few days. Because I think I was just so ashamed of where I come from. And then like I was taking a micro dose and this past weekend and I was listening to The Ocean and I was looking at some pictures and videos and texts from my friend that had died in February. And he was like, something's like, can't wait to catch up in that 903 voice.

yeah.

Tiff Love (01:54.595)

Sorry.

I was like, I do have that 903 voice. And then I was like, and I do have an uncle that's younger than me and a great grandma with 12 toes and a moonshining weight, you know, gambling, dice weighted grandpa, know. And there's more like peeing in a bucket growing up. And so it was like this, and so I turned on Outlaw Women. I was just dancing. was like, mm-mm. And just, it's like, okay, yeah, I'm gonna own my...

country, hillbilly, outlaw-ness. And it's just been really very healing. And I didn't even realize that it was something that was back there in the golden shadow, which I love that term. I just don't know much about it.

I mean, I don't really either, but this is what rang true to me. like actually the first time that I've really put a pin like associated with something to be able to make it, oh, that makes sense. Yeah, for me, it's like I've always been the joie de vivre. so that part of it like felt good to me, but also it...

to be taken seriously. I like to say sincere. don't know where, I learned that from to take it, be sincere, to take sincerely. And cause I don't resonate with serious. Although when I get into my craft and the work that I do and then it's like, take on this other form that's very crone like energy and mother, but it always.

Kristin (03:11.692)

me either!

Tiff Love (03:26.412)

I bring in the play, I'm just like, my gosh, water, you're so great. And I think like, it's just my natural state. I do believe that I walk into these spaces with a lot of high caliber people and work with executives and people that are holding a lot and thinking that I have to be something else to be in that space. But what's really is my

essence of who I am in that space with those people is healing for them. Just the presence of being that delightful, childlike, playful, sometimes just who you are in the moment. The hillbilly that's just like free who I am. Yellowstone, they love that shit, you know? It's like, because it's an opportunity, it's an invitation for, it's almost, it's like settling to the nervous system when someone else is so.

comfortable or could be poking because when you're not you're just like

It's like realizing the more I'm fully me than my phone just dinged.

We're just going to take that as spirit confirmation. We'll let good snaps in the background.

Tiff Love (04:44.814)

Yeah, just like it's what's it's the radiance is that is that full expression of self because we get into relationships and we want to you know Impress or be what we think they want us to be. Oh my god. I teach that lesson So early transformative for everybody

Yeah, it's a permission slip. And to me, it's like if they're in that corporatey kind of more butthole clinching environment, the thing they need most is that playfulness and that permission to be and play. And I think it's so important. I was doing some reflection the other day and I was like, you know what? I felt a lot older as a kid growing up. know, the big T, little T's, I felt like an old soul. And so for me,

As I get older, it's a return to that playfulness. And I love the distinction that you made of landing sincerely or feeling, it sincere and black versus like, serious. Yeah. I'm like, I don't wanna be serious. Yep. Yeah.

And then, we can't, I think, and just like, if I'm going to be taken seriously as a, as a healer, as like you're like, as a, to hold you in a container that's like intense energy and we're moving a lot. Like I felt that I had to walk the way they see these other, you know, not consciously. didn't actually ever try to be that because I can't, but.

Yes.

Tiff Love (06:17.496)

thinking like, they choose, would choose that because it looks more like, yeah, like, you know, she definitely frolics with the earth because she doesn't wear makeup and she, you know, or she's just very slow. I'm just not that, but I will suck some demons out of you and it's gonna be great. You're gonna love it. It's not.

aesthetically pleasing.

Kristin (06:45.422)

got some demons out of you, I love it. It reminds me of my therapist slash guide that I found, or ex-therapist, we're no longer in that contained or capacity anymore. But she told me, she's like, get a black obsidian yoni egg. She's like, it'll get rid of any of that devil dick energy. Yes. I was like, yes, thank God. And it kind of reminded me of what you were saying. A friend of mine from South Africa, she's like, calls herself a priestess with a pimp lip.

She had seen like the Avalon or maybe Glastonbury, know, Whimsicool, which is beautiful and like all that too. But there's like so many different variants and expressions of the priestess that I think is beautiful too. Yeah. He'll be only priestess, playful priestess.

And I'm like, I'm not gonna be the like dominatrix in the same way that like a girlfriend I know would be. Like I don't come with that energy and I don't try. But I probably used to definitely try.

my God, to just go Am I living up to what I'm perceiving as what their expectations are? They haven't necessarily communicated that, but yeah. A woman on the plane ride back from Mexico gave me a really powerful compliment, especially because it came from a woman. Because I feel like there can be like that, you know, poking or something too. So I had gone down there and worn like some sweatpants, but it was so sweaty on that first fucking flight. And I was like, there's no way I'm putting those back on.

And so was like, fuck it, I'm just wearing my cutoffs and a shirt and my vans. I'll have my sweater just in case I get cold, because the whole of that one will probably be cold. And I sit down, I was sending some voicemails, I mean, voice memos to Liv. I da da da da, and then she goes, can I ask how old you are? Because you look 19, but you're speaking like a 45 year old CEO. I was like, thank you. I need to go back and listen to those voice memos and see what I was saying.

Tiff Love (08:44.268)

Yes!

But I was like, just like, sat with that and let it land for a minute. I'm like, I'll receive that. But I really did go back and listen to the voice memos. was like, okay, cool. And I'm like, I'm gonna take that. And I just told her, like, you know, I kind of think that I grew up with a lot of big T, little T. I think of it's a reflection of my innards and orgasms and sunscreen. Yeah.

Exactly. Orgasms.

Yeah, yeah, like there's no healing. Which speaking of, how did you find yourself love in like, in this priestess, tantric, sacred sexuality, sensuality space? Like how did you get the journey rocking in it?

You know, it's so funny when, before my husband passed away, I had a reading from someone and she told me her name is gonna come to me. She actually, worked, works alongside of like sex workers and she, gosh, I'll find her name. But she told me she's like, you're a galactic cat and your sexuality is your super superpower. She didn't know like I.

Tiff Love (09:55.106)

Well, this is going to get woo-woo, but like the Lyran beings are like the cat beings and they're the ones who like live and just like do everything, right? And so she told me that, but meanwhile, I'm in a marriage that is with like a lot of relapse and a lot of, and I'm just like, okay. I wasn't as fully at my capacity. And then my husband passed away and I went on my

journey to the underworld with nature and out and in and around. And then I landed in Austin. I had a client that, and I was doing energy work, Reiki, readings, just intuitive readings, the work that I do and non-sexual.

And this man that I worked with, he's in the Tantra community. He just wanted a reiki session. He's like, what you do is Tantra. I'm like, what's that? I didn't even know. And then I got on a call with someone about the Tantra Fest. This is like three years ago, and to be an angel. And she said, well, what's Tantra to you? I was like, well, to me, being so connect, like to...

a sensory experience with the earth, knowing that my body, my form is the landing point of heaven and earth to connect, to really to listen and to feel so fully and be alive with God inside of me. And she was like, yeah.

Tiff Love (11:35.372)

And then I was dating a man who he was poly and open and I wasn't, I didn't know. In my life experience in Delaware when I was married, I had friends and they were all like kind of couple, they would play and swap and I was so curious, but our relationship wasn't at a stable place for that experience. We both were like curious, but we didn't ever go there, would have been bad timing. And so,

that had been in my thoughts. And I went to some parties with him and I went to, not just parties, but these were consciousness explorations. Like this is going to Rope Labs and learning about Shabari, but the healing art of it and the healing of BDSM and Tantra. And then I met, I met Rina Trevi and I took her course for Tantra exploration and BDSM.

I just, I'm in the tail end of it. Yeah.

Yeah, I love how she's bringing God, source, creator. She's bringing in service and reverence to Kali Ma. And then I get the sacred touch sensuality. And then Leola, I went to her pleasure, her love immersion weekend, tantra love retreat. There's so many. And that was like, we, I'd been dating this man for a number of... We just, I just like, when I, I don't know if it was...

months.

Tiff Love (13:05.292)

When I do it, I just do it, I don't care. Maybe I'm a little bit of like an exhibition, I'm definitely exhibitionist, but it was just like, I'm gonna go for it. And we were the only couple that did every experience with other people. And I just like push my edges and push my edges. And I would work with him. So I'm already doing shamanic energy work and medicine ceremonies. And then I'm, and then we're having this very expansive sexual relationship. And so I started,

doing like energy work while practicing while intimate with him. And we were doing sex magic and I was moving energy and I healed his balls. He had a vasectomy and he was like, I'm sensitive here as we discussed. then at some point we did an intentional thing and he's never had pain again. I was like, oh, wow, okay.

So I'd already been working with men and women and healing, healing the womb, healing energy. And then I just was like, oh, this has been done for ever and hidden. And it's where I deeply resonate as touch and pleasure. Like, do you remember, I don't know if you did this when you were like little girls, we would have sleepovers and we would tickle each other's mouth.

I went way more than tickling each other's back. Yeah, were like, okay, you go for five minutes, I go for five minutes, like just playfully exploring and going down on one another. mean, like, there's probably an element of sometimes I feel like, you know, and when things happen to you when you're young, that, that I'm like, you it's like, what a hyper-responsive or like an underactive response. There was that too. But also like the

exploring and finding of shower heads and just being like, this feels good. I don't know what this is, but touching myself here in my private part area is like whatever my parents are probably calling it at that time was, I felt like I had to keep it to myself. then I'm like, no wonder I like the taboo so much now.

Tiff Love (15:14.432)

so much and all is so related because it's it's, it's, it's shit and God exploring.

self-exploring and feeling alive. Yeah. Yeah. And it's just so healing. And I kind of like to think that part of the reason why Jesus or Yeshua was so powerful was because he had Mary Magdalene when doing the tantric practices. 100%. And I'm like, it's kind of healed some of my religious wound or something as far as like having a self-pleasure session with him. And I was like, this is...

Incredible

Yeah, I have done like called in energy like channeling God creator like different and entity being like different sources representations like my divine masculine partner and Jesus and just like Exploring myself in that way energetically like letting my hands be the hand You know and that it's just like

makes you very discerning when it comes to... But you're like, I'm good. I have my sisters and I have men, listen up. I want them PSA out there. The women are like doing so much soul work and so are the men. So if you're not, step up because men are getting ready for their queen and their priestess and the women are getting more and more powerful and...

Kristin (16:22.583)

Yeah.

Tiff Love (16:48.878)

connected and like not. So because we're so connected and we're getting more and more powerful because we're connected and we're healing the sisterhood, we're together and we're together. Like you gotta really be in your fullness. Not like you have to be this, this, this and that, but really aligned with who you are. Self-aware. Angel says self-actualized and I love that.

like in tune with what your own values, integrity, like what works for you and I may not be like what works for you, that kind of thing, like what jives and like all are okay and like beautiful expressions. I think that's a good marker to highlight. Because that's one thing I thought too, I struggled so long when for me like finding Tantra, I was like, okay, my spirituality practice is over here and my sexuality and human desires and stuff are over here. And I felt very conflicted, I was like, I love both.

So I was like, how do I meld the two and finding Tondra or like how, was like, oh, it just felt like such a homecoming. So I was like, oh, you mean all of this is spiritual. Like being a human, the more I've embraced like being a human and those desires, it's like the more spiritual life becomes. Like I've been feeling like I've been living in like synchronicity the last week. I'm just like, well, ping, ping, ping. As far as like since that awareness.

Yeah, I kind of want to reference to some of my questions real quick.

I know I could keep going. I've got so many zoomies.

Kristin (18:21.006)

like I'm docked into this one unlike he's my mirror

want talk about this. I want to talk about that.

Well, you you mentioned the womb and I know you posted something the other day about like the womb and throat connection and it's been like, and I'm like, fuck. Since these insights and I have some, I think ancestral grandmother healing going on simultaneously. But it's just been like all in this area lower back. Like I was swimming with a friend. was like, God, I just need to stretch. like, even just like naming like some of those things with you earlier. I was like, it feels good to express.

Yeah, I would love for it to dive deeper into the womb-throat connection and...

It's newer to me, I know like the shape when you look at the shape of the organs, the throat, the larynx, like it looks the same like on a image. you know, even I'm sure there's in nature things that look the same, right? And so the thing that heals our womb likely heals our throat.

Tiff Love (19:25.176)

But I go back to what you talked about, like ancestrally, women's voice and women's sexuality. And I'm curious if like, as you are a writer and you're speaking, if you now like map it intentionally to be connected to the womb, like as I speak, I experience more pleasure and I heal as I'm my womb. Like touching myself and exploring myself and going deep, I'm healing not only my womb, you know.

but all, like as I heal myself. And like one of the things that I love to do is just like, kind of like, just pull the energy in, know, and feel into it and like just with breath, but not like a one, two, three, four, whole, you know, kind of thing. And like get kind of like primal and you have to breathe. you're like.

and you're just expressing and moving and just letting whatever wants to move through come out. it's, I feel like it matches, it's our, because our power and our power, women, our voice can be soothing, it can be impactful, it can be like the siren. There's so many ways in which like our voice, because we're the oracle, right? And our channel, our power, our wisdom,

comes from this space because this is like the, this is the wormhole, the gateway through all time and space. is the dimension. This is where life comes. These two are not, that's like stifling us. And it's like, may, really, if I allowed myself, could make me emotional. Life comes through this and we are forced to shut it down.

And this, this expression, it's all do, do, do, do, fear, like stories of hatred, it doesn't matter. We're here to rise up and connect and use our voice and connect and be in our pleasure and we're doing it. And that's when you see, you're seeing a lot of, a lot of transformation. But I think what I love about Tantra is the comfortability with like,

Tiff Love (21:43.566)

Pain turning into pleasure. the acceptance of being fully in our pleasure allows us to be fully in our other emotions as well more deeply because we can be that big. So we can be that big expressive in all ways. And I've noticed people, yes, there's like leaky and there's not, there's different ranges, but

The alchemy.

Tiff Love (22:10.858)

when you're grounded in the earth and when you're connected to spirit and the heart and in your pleasure to do like all like it's

Yeah, I feel that. recently had a kind of a womb intention setting. Like, we grounded. I had my hand on my womb, but I was also, like, reaching up to the sky to grab, the intentions that I have for going forward into this women's retreat next week. And they told me to come up with three and was like, but I don't really like anyone ever telling me what to do. like, four or five. And, like, the first one was uncensored. The second one was sacred rebel.

The third was prosperity and then surrender. And then crafting an image. And I definitely did not take this fucking image into the house. It came through in the moment, because I like, I would not put that together. I mean, I love all those elements, but no. And it was this woman with long, dark hair riding on a wolf with ISIS wings and some badass, dark.

sexy clothes. was like, fuck yeah. So now some of my friends are like in a design competition to get a, cause I want to cover up this tattoo and like get that. But I'm like, I love that. So we'll see that goes. But, and like you said something that about the voice and womb. It's like, even since then, I feel like there's been like a expression of more or just like different facets. And then I remember after my first Tantric retreat, like ISTA, I went and then it seemed like,

the level of resonance in my voice, like my voice dropped. Like I was talking maybe higher up here and then it just like kinda came more grounded or into my being after like going through so many of those different rituals and emotional release techniques. And because I had written that book, I had had so many mental understandings, but I didn't have the like physical embodiment to couple it or like the felt experience. And so it's like that. And then like from then to today, it's like, okay.

Kristin (24:11.374)

I was trying to like kind of, patience has been a lesson of mine that I've signed up to learn. And so I was like, I want this thing out like fucking yesterday. I know the healing power that it has. But it's also like in a meeting. And also I will say, I actually recorded it here at RecordATX, the audio book version. And there was such a different level of landing or healing or growth from speaking it.

And I would read it over sometimes and like, and I'd have like emotional releases or sometimes even when I was writing it, typing and da da da, or sometimes I'm like, that doesn't even sound like me, that came from somewhere else or like a high self or like some kind of angel or God, I don't know. And then speaking it out was just like also a cathartic release and like the alchemy of the pain and using art and creativity and expression for that. was just like, fuck, yeah.

want to talk more about your book because I have three books in Readsie that are almost finished. Part of what I'm doing my journey to go away next week is like I'm gonna do writing. Like just like writing retreats. that and I think it's been like waiting to be finished because I needed I wanted to grow but I'm also in the middle but I like that I'm in the middle. Who writes in the middle of their experience?

have to scripting kind of anyway.

Exactly. that's really powerful to me. I was curious if in writing your book and in speaking, if that's helped you, I imagine that it has, know, it helped you opened up and become more free in your work and what you do.

Kristin (25:55.022)

Oh, man, like, dude. I thought that I set out to write it for other people. Like, I was like, okay, it's like a love letter to, maybe a love letter to my younger self, but also those people in like so much loss, pain, or chaos, which I was still at in that fucking moment. it was like very much so. And then I had a guide and a coach, my editor and Mary Nelligan, incredible. But she would prompt questions. I would send her 20 pages at a time.

and she would prompt questions in the side and because I had had such like a people pleasing kick, I didn't know how I thought or like on certain things. So she would prompt questions and then I would go in journal and be like, okay, this is how I feel about this today. Cause it can shift and evolve and there's things in there that have shifted and evolved versus like where I'm at today.

Cool, imagine like another book where it's like the same but then you cross off things. Oh And in the captions you're like writing different stuff. that's cool. thread lines. Paper, yeah.

and then like, no, add poetry. I love that. Thank you. Love that idea. And so yeah, it very much. And then also, you I thought I was like gonna be just done with like some of the sexuality or sensuality being in that space. actually, ha! Yeah, and then was actually temporary. mean, initially I thought it was gonna be called the Scenic Route Home.

Sure.

Kristin (27:19.438)

Cause that's what it felt like the taking the scenic route to come home to myself. And it was like a nod to my dad who had said how important the scenic route is versus like the, cause I was like, why aren't we on the main highway? And, and so, but then I was in a titling workshop and they were like, tell us about it. was like, it's like the sex and then the drugs and then the tapping into the soul part. They're like, that's your title. Yeah. Oh, crunchy. Cause that good girl conditioning.

I was like, God. leading up to it, I felt all the things, like wanting to puke and vomit and like shedding of skin. was like, And then just like, just keeping at it. I'm like, no, the why is bigger. Like, you know, I think the intention before, and there's been moments where I'm like, I'm take a step back, reassess, because I had a video go like semi-viral once and I was like, it felt like a public shaming.

I feel it

Kristin (28:13.966)

And then I was also like, well, they're not doing anything that I haven't probably called or questioned myself with. Like, why do I care so much? And then so just like then I was like, mission is to go forward like gas pedal, full throttle with some pit stops. yeah, I don't know. I kind of went off a little tangent with it. Yeah. But I'm like, did I answer the question? Yeah.

Yeah, yeah.

Tiff Love (28:43.04)

Yeah, no.

Oh, you have three in the chamber right now in the oven. Yeah. Are you going to finish all three? I mean, like, how do you see this?

The one is just a bunch of my channeled poems, writings and stories. And that's like, really I could just it to someone and they can tweak it a little bit. Because a lot of the things don't necessarily have titles. have one about psychedelics called Golden Teachers. have one about trot. Like they're all cute in their own. I could just do it.

And I really wanted to have someone, I wanted to do some light language artwork to go with each one that was like, that's been the pause or some sort of, for each page, like something to meditate on. But then the one is just my story, but written in a way that's kind of like a manifesto, like the future visioning and also the path that got me to where it's like about reality. It's hard, it's like the encapsulation of a brain on

life in a different way and how to put that in a way that's easy to understand or not all over the place because I'm all over the place.

Kristin (29:55.392)

Nonlinear is good too. Sometimes like I say that's what I was kind of think. We created a timeline and I had like all these moments of like, uh-huh, uh-huh, being light bulb. Like that's kind of what influenced this decision in my worldview. And now it's like, it helped like be Windex for my belief window and like how I like loved and accepted myself or like come home. But I'm happy to like read and dissect or like add notes to yours too. Because I think I did it linear first.

and then reorganized and made it was more impactful. And the beginning and the end was kind of what changed the most, and I don't know. And you could play with that, maybe play with three different ways to start it. Which moments?

Yeah, for sure.

Tiff Love (30:40.056)

Because I like to things different. And so now I'm like, I know what to do.

Yeah, okay. Or like even like, yeah, I'm yeah.

Like it can be like one of those like, you know, on Netflix, like choose your adventure. Yeah, like I could have gone this route and this maybe would have happened. I could have gone this route. Which one do you think actually happened? Kind of thing and that's the end.

Kristin (31:02.348)

Fun and playful too, that's very much your essence.

With rituals in between, of it's manifestation, part of it's already happened. So I feel like I'm gonna do this retreat and it's just gonna be like channel, channel, channel. All right, it's just gonna flow.

And you leave Monday to go on the retreat, right? leave Monday. Hey. Well, this is going to come out after then. Yeah, know. But we're accepting retreat spaces for fighting, birthing, recreation, healing.

Whenever the place appears

Tiff Love (31:36.334)

I really do. trust and believe that it's just.

Yes, I was going to tell you, I sent you the voice memo because I'm going be gone some of those days next week. But I mean, don't know. I mean, you can totally go there. just don't know if it's as secluded as you're wanting.

I have some spots that are popping up, but I'm interested in that. I'm kind of, you know, I'm just in flow and I trust and I know that I'll be where I'm meant to be. I may be meant to be in some, a studio of a creative who's a writer, you know, but I may be meant to be in my car in the mountains. Yeah. Just, yeah.

Yeah. Trusting the timing of it. That's definitely been. It's like, okay, I'm right where I need to be and the right moment. Then sometimes when I reflect, I'm like, oh yeah, all that shit worked out way better than when I tried to piece it together or force it to happen or control it. It's like the lined up and the divine orchestration.

the God aspect did it better than I could have done it or thought of it from where I was in that current state.

Tiff Love (32:47.498)

Do you find that now as you're like consciously creating your reality with God that you are able to more quickly in the moment be like this is okay This is happening for me, obviously

For sure, even if I can't see it in the moment, like there's some challenging things going on right now. I'm like, God, fuck, I'm like this, really, right now? Like my grandmother, we went back to the ER last night. I mean, like that's my, I'm her namesake. People say they don't have favorites, but. What is it? It's just.

It's challenging. so my repetition or like mantra in those moments, it's like, even if I can't see it right now, I trust and I know and I deeply believe that it's all working out for good and for me. And I believe that's even like a Bible verse that my mom instilled, like Romans 8.28, that I'm like piecing back. And that's been an interesting journey too, is like taking those verses that resonate and blending it with my mysticism and not like one of them having to be right or wrong.

There's so much mysticism in the Bible.

It's like, I just for so long, I even knew the word God, I had to shift my relationship with it and I had to call him, or him, her, her, both, whatever, Gus for a while. Because it was like God universe source. It just personalized the relationship. And that was something that a coach, thanks Sophie, gave me to help shift. Because whenever a God would come up, I would have that instant judgment. I'd be like, I don't know if that's the path.

Kristin (34:25.678)

But I also love the book Conversations with God, particularly the audio because it does have a feminine and a masculine voice. And I'm like, yes. Yeah. What's the, have you had, like, how, did you grow up? Like, did you grow up in like a religious environment or? So.

I love that.

Tiff Love (34:46.593)

My mother was Christian. grew up, I guess she grew up like Pentecostal Christian. My dad is Jewish. I ended up getting pulled out of my public high school, because I got in trouble too much, and put into an all girls Catholic school. And then I studied Buddhism. I wrote a paper in college about Beastie Boys and Buddhism. Oh, cool title.

I researched how they transformed when they found Buddhism and became spiritual and the arc of their music.

Didn't know that. Yeah. Cool.

Yeah, and so like I remember having a conversation with my mom about Buddha and Jesus and being being like so you're telling me that so-and-so is going to hell I just don't believe it. It does not make sense to me. I cannot I cannot and I used to Loathe when I saw the southern I I was very judgmental like when they would say bless his heart and I'll you're talking shit and then you're say bless his heart. Mm-hmm. I used to hate that cuz I like

Straightforward, straightforward. That's why I love authenticity because I can read it, I can see it so clearly. I had this story, I was raised and not told the truth about something until I was 10. And then asked to do the same my whole life. And I got in trouble anytime I told the truth. But there's also still, I'm not fully, I'm sure, transparent about things with all people with all things.

Tiff Love (36:21.71)

But anyway, back to religion. So I...

I love to study. I studied astrology and I studied like all of this stuff. I was so curious about just theology. But I definitely had some judgments and I was more of like a nature person. was probably pagan and I didn't know it. Like in the forest talking to the trees by myself, my parents worked and I would go home and be alone.

And so I wouldn't be alone, I'd be in the forest. So that was my nature. That was my home, that was my family. And so then I, then my, with like through expansion, I went into studying angels and learning Reiki and that brought me back to God. It brought me back to Jesus and learning and studying.

the mysticism of the Bible and the numerology and then all of how it all wove together. so seeing the Buddha, Christ, all of the avatars that are ascended masters and just like, it was all love. And then I just realized it's all love. And that's my religion.

Yes! Love is my religion! Thank you.

Tiff Love (37:52.008)

I don't know which Marley sang that but

Yes, I love it all. There's so many pieces that was like, oh yes, that resonate with me too. And I think so many people. And I feel like sometimes when we're put in those constrictive environments, we want to like, bam, kick against it. I definitely experienced that. you're going to be so strict, I'm going to rebel against it.

Sacred Rebel Heart.

Yes, my friend like my parents they're like, you're not gonna talk to boys on the phone I'll show you I'll go get a drug dealer phone and like put some minutes on it You won't know because they were recording my calls at the time And then I'd have some freedom at my dad's and it very like these two different Environments and then you meant to nature and running to the woods and like that's I'll be like ping like that was like a safe haven

And then I'm like, what else was I gonna say? Oh, it reminds me of a story of my dad. And I got a little emotional as you were recounting your journey because I remember asking him one time and I didn't give it as much credit then as I give it now or how much wisdom he had because I asked, was like, daddy, I'm like, why aren't we going to church? And he pointed to the lake. He's like, this is my church. I didn't get it. I was like, hmm. So then I went to my stepdad and I got his insight and stuff.

Kristin (39:11.822)

And then I remember like after I finished writing, I was on, I think it was this, a mushroom journey that I'd done. Where I can, at first I was super afraid and then I just from somewhere heard surrender. It was a male voice, was not, or a masculine, it was not me. And I was like, and I just felt like I astral projected, connected to my dad's spirit. I was like, oh my God, you've been here the whole time. You never abandoned me. And I felt so much unconditional love. And I kind of had a moment of you like,

It's all love, it's all love, you gotta amplify love, be love, da da da. And then I came back the next, you know, the next morning, I'm like seeing the interconnectedness and seeing like the hummingbird, like da da da, and just like seeing how that, and then, then like doubt starts to creep in. And so I was like, you know, I would really love a sign, some kind of sign. Can you show me a feather in some way? And then I forget about it.

Then one of the next mornings I'm like going on a walk and listening to a podcast and I think it's a Tim Ferriss podcast where he talks about this woman. He opens up with an intro about a woman from MIT who were belled against when they were trying, the wearing feathers in their hats or something. And I was just like, do do do do. And then there's a song that came on and it's like, what if we're all gods experiencing God in one another and like raw love. was like, I like that.

worldview. Like experiencing the different expressions and being love and amplifying love and you are totally an embodiment of love. at any time, I just remember the first moment too that I saw your little face pop up on like one of the Zoom calls. You just had so much exuberance and love of life and creativity that it was beautiful. And I was like, who is that? Like it sparked curiosity. was like, she?

She is great and then I kind of follow and then I was so happy that we were connected and Pleasure Priestess together too and I just wanted to express that.

Tiff Love (41:10.552)

I always had a love of resonance for you. was like, and I even was like, she's special. that she's, wow. I've always thought you were this like vibrant, like just you had it together, landed, but you also were playful and joyful. Like you're super embodied, just like embodied with who you are. And what's really beautiful. Yeah. And lovely.

Well, thank you. I want to know in this moment, what's turning you on the most right now?

Well, I wanna surface something that always is like, when we talk about being love, and I think this may be like a self-deprecation thing of me or the authenticity thing, is I always wanna say like, it's so easy to be like, see everything as love when it's like the trees and the hummingbirds and the people that radiate, but like the people that I struggle, I've struggled the most with that are really like, I'm divergent from their beliefs and like,

and it causes such a, so now I'm in the state of really loving and accepting that because then they'll love, it's just a mirror. And the more I resist, the more, and I've noticed those relationships becoming more loving and that's the most powerful thing because we can love all of humanity and the guy at the store, but if we're like, because we're so triggered by certain ones and they see us in a certain way,

And so because they see us in a certain way, we act in a certain way. And it's removing ourselves from that where it's like almost like the real work can come in. And one thing, like when moving energy, like it's not just like the sexual energy that we can move and manifest with, but it's like any powerful emotion or energy that's been coming online. That's really like something that landed for me. And so what's like most alive, or do you have any-

Kristin (43:08.142)

Something to add to, yeah, because something that you always like, oh yeah, sprouted, because I feel like sometimes when we think of love, discernment and boundaries don't always come in. And I had a moment the other day, I was like leaving the sauna and I had communicated like a request to someone like a couple of times. And I was just very much in like a, mode. And it's just like, he would like unsend a message so that it would pop back up. And then I was like this. And so I was like, listen.

I told you that I don't have the space right now or the capacity to give you the attention or love that this deserves, but you're not listening to me and I've asked you a couple of times, so I'm gonna block you for now and then I'll let you know when I unblock you, but just for my own peace and sovereignty and like where I'm at right now, I've gotta create a little shield. And it just, I was like, all me would not have done that. And like with love and light and also sometimes a karate kick. Like because I like had.

You know, I've got to protect it too.

resonates a lot. And it's an invitation for others to do the same. To be like, I can do that? Because you can do it with love. And how they respond is not your, or how they feel or react is something you did with love is not responsibility. Learning that.

And yeah, and at first I was like, well, he was asking me some questions. was like, well, I'd love if you journal about these questions first. Like, why are you asking me? Like, take it to the page first. And then we can like hash it out and all that stuff. then, but it just kept like, it felt like a pump, pump, poke. Cause like I was still responding. So was like, I think he likes that I'm still responding regardless of whether I'm answering the question or not. And then, and it was just like, no, I'm like, I'm processing like this and.

Kristin (44:52.322)

this hillbilly grandmother and like feeling like so it was just like I don't have the space.

Priestessing, a relate, now when you become, when you become, when you see your priestess in work or whatever, you just, you just can't not almost. And it's almost like, God, it would be so easy to not, but I'm, it's your, it's like teaching, you know, and like how to, like how to communicate, like teaching them like what they want. Oh my God, but I.

I see that so much now and I never had it before. It's just like, don't react. We like really, really just like, you pause and reflect and respond and guide and lead in how you show up. That's like sexy.

So sorry. thank you. Now I'm like, I want to know what is lighting you up or turning you on in this moment. And then I also want to read the poem that ladies and gents or whatever you subscribe to. You were such a muse for me and for a poem that came through. I want to thank Angie too for lighting the fire under my ass or offer. She's like,

I would love for you to write something for love. And I felt on a time crunch, but sometimes that's when some of the best stuff comes through. was like, how about I had about an hour window at a coffee shop in between something. I'm like, we're gonna do this. And I've tweaked it a little bit, tweaked it on the full moon a little bit, but it's still the bones. It's pretty much the same. It's just like a little couple shifts, but I just wanted, you were such a muse.

Tiff Love (46:22.188)

That was so moving.

Kristin (46:38.146)

I may go to Cuyah tonight and read it too. Wait. Yeah, I think it's 6 or 6.30.

Did I say who you think? my goodness. I might have to go do that. My kiddo's been wanting to stay with my parents a lot and I'm in a state of like acceptance of that. They've got, it's just like our home. I don't know what it is, but yeah, a form we would resist because like they're feeding you that. And did you just want to play the

He has five because I don't even have a TV. I'm just like, you know what? He's 10. He also is very intuitive. made it. I'm just, I'm just trust. I'm just in a state of trust. So I might be at Kuya. might. So what's alive for me? Switzerland. The universe is just like pushing me to create so many programs and so many things and go into Switzerland. I go to Switzerland. Then I start telling people that I'm doing grid work and they want to come.

So now it's like, now I'm going to Switzerland and now I have people that want to come do this grid working retreat in Switzerland. Because like, I know I'm flying across the world for a reason and I'm going to commune with the Alps and I'm learning about like the presence and the energy and the power and the dragon and the, and and so, and then we're, I had a vision of myself in meditation. I do a lot of future visioning.

and I'm in the bath usually when I do it because I'm working with the water. sit with, I have a whole ceremony. And one of the times I'm sitting looking at my future self and tuning in, I saw her adjusting a shoe strap in a Paris window. And in my mind, I'm about to either go speak somewhere, facilitate something or.

Tiff Love (48:36.302)

do like a podcast interview, like I'm getting, I'm doing something. It's like work related, but I'm in Paris also vacation at the same time. And so then all of a sudden a friend, like six months later, a friend invites me to stay with her in Zurich. I'm going to Zurich. I'm taking a train with my son to Paris and I have, I'm going to Milan and then I have someone else in Portugal and it's like, okay. And then I'm like, I would love it if I, if this was like,

I was able to do grid work and have an excursion and do a retreat and I see, I vision a sound healing in the Alps and we're doing energy work and then suddenly she's like, yeah, I have this friend who's a sound healer who blah, blah, blah, wants to, and so now I'm doing women's circles in Zurich and I'm working and I just, it just like, I see it. And so then I ping my, my like a pass out and I'm like, girl, it's good. Just, just do the thing. Like do this, go there, do that. Give her like,

It's butterfly- let's go! Like we can- let's use her powers, our mind powers. Yes.

I love that you said, I ping my past self. I love that because I do think that some of our present desires or things that are surfacing are whispers from our future selves. I was like, there's like, I could not do it because it's like, ping, what are the dates that you're gonna be in Europe?

July 8th through August.

Kristin (49:59.982)

Okay, okay. Yeah, we definitely have some overlapping time July 8th or August 6th. If you're in Europe, slide under our DM or...

I'm a festival.

Tiff Love (50:09.966)

Send me a DM, let's go. Let's do some magic, I promise. You won't be the same.

I haven't been the same in the best ways. Okay, I'd love to read this poem to you and then I'll include all of your social stuff and tags and all that stuff. like, okay, I have it on my phone. I need to have a written copy too because sometimes these digital things.

Kristin (50:41.964)

Yeah.

Kristin (50:46.158)

And also I call myself the belching goddess because I move a lot of energy through burps. Okay, so there was like, let me take a sip of water first.

Yeah.

Kristin (51:02.094)

A sun rises in every precious moment and this goddess knows. She greets each second with devotion. She's cleansed by the waters of soft rain, raging rivers, slow showers, gliding tears, and dew from delicate flowers. She holds hands with all versions of herself while her body simmers

glimmers, shimmers as each cell upgrades, renews and remembers. Her presence, her eyes, her exuberance, sing a song of strength. For each tender rose stroke paints a new life with sprouted ISIS wings. Initiations, they greet, yet she knows. She knows they unlock codes and spark new depths of wisdom.

softness and magic. She savors life, greets the peace and sacred pauses.

Kristin (52:13.966)

She laughs knowing her wings shape shift to her heart's desires. She walks with the priestess's past, future, present. Her heartbeat drums fires calling forth the men and the divine feminine. With every gaze, touch, stroke, ancient wisdom whisked in the modern air. Hathor giggles, Sekhmet roars, Mary plays with her hair.

And Isis howls at the moon, a yelp of confirmation for the harmony within. Ow! Ow! She is them. She is her. She is earth, wind, fire, water. Her curiosity unwraps secrets and mysteries of stories long told. She is ever curious, ever daring, ever bold.

Every walk on this wonder, this priestess wonders as she wanders. Rumor has it she was sent from the future, a planet above and even another cosmic dimension. Her light shines into nooks, crannies, corners, building bridges between the earthly and the unseen. For she pays pathways, inspiring, inciting by the mere breath of her being. She is love.

Kristin (53:45.198)

Mmm, I love you.

Nobody like every time you I hear that I read that I like I've never had anyone see me articulate like just like That's it. Like if I could tell anyone I'm just like read that like that's like you I've never felt so Like really seen I have like there's people that love me and they say but just like all in one Wow

Well, thank you for using me, sister.

like a journey. Thank you. Thank you.

We're about, wrapped in beyond, but to infinity and beyond again.

Tiff Love (54:24.526)

I love you so much. It was beautiful. Yeah.

Thank you guys for listening and that we would love some support by sharing if it resonated with you or tickled your fancy in a certain way. Tune in next week. Bye.

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